Being afraid to confront power

I've been struggling with in my work. Is whether I'm doing work for "power over" vs. "power to." I'm afraid to be too overtly trying to give power to.

Sometimes it feels like we need to hide the work we really need to do. I think because of this I’ve come across as ineffective or simply not the right fit. I’ve hung back and not said what I’m really feeling. I’ve been laid off and probably more likely fired.

The talks and posts I do outside of work is like a stream of particles that have escaped a black hole. Everything is compacted at the center but there is something that leaks out.

In my case, these are the talks and 1:1 discussions I have. I warn people. And I try to justify that I’m trying to change things from the inside.

I want to take care of my family. Feel some sense of identity that is loosely associated with work that I’m doing the best work I could. That I am helping.

But am I really? Am I just trying giving hospice to the chance that things can change?